It’s the last day of the year of 2011. What exactly comes to
your mind as you think about this very day? I know for certain that some people
are planning their outfits for the ‘biggest party” of the year tonight, some
are busy constructing the most annoying broadcasts to distribute on bbm, the religious
fanatics are probably going to stay up all night praying to God that they make
it towards the new year, while to others, it’s pretty much just a regular day.
This blog has been in existence since God-knows-when and I’m
just getting to write a feature on it. Don’t get me wrong, I love to write, it’s
been my favorite thing since I was about 10 or so. While my sisters would yearn
for Kenan and Kel on Nickelodeon or make ‘houses’ out of the sofa cushions, I’d
be searching for a book with partly empty pages because I just had to write. Fast
forward to this very day, I’m pretty much the same person except that I kind of
lost my zeal to write thanks to the numerous times my computers had ‘given up
the ghost’ on me in the middle of writing a fantastic novel (thank you
fate!). But today, I just woke up feeling like my 10 year old self again, well,
only a bit more technologically advanced.
What’s so different about today some might ask, well looking
back over the year it was no 2008 (the most amazing year ever) but a lot of
stuff went down. I didn’t like myself that much in the beginning of the year
and this was entirely due to the fact that I kept on making the same mistakes
all over again like I was overdosed on stupid. Seriously, who was that girl? I cringe
whenever I think of myself back then. Then towards the end of the year, I renewed
my faith in God and it’s been uphill from there.
The whole point of this was not to convert people to my
religion but all I’m trying to say is that it gave me and entirely
different point of view about today being the last day of the year. I woke up this morning not only reminiscing
the fact that yesterday was one of the most amazing days EVER but thinking
about who I was going to be in the New Year. I’m certainly not one to make a
new year resolution list because to some extent I think it’s kind of dumb. The
reason I’m saying this is not to insult your intelligence or whatever but think
about this deeply if you feel that writing stuff down on piece of paper about
things you want to change in your life then I doubt if you actually would
change. A resolution is something you make in your hearts and something that’s
done without even having to announce to the entire world that you’ve changed
something about yourself, you do it because you genuinely believe that changing
that certain aspect of your life would bring you a step closer to who you truly
want to be.
Another thing asides resolutions are the clichéd parties
that happen at this time every year. Before you dress up as that sexy playboy
bunny to the biggest party at marquee, think about it carefully am I dressed up
as a slut because all I care about is catching a husband before the year runs
out or I’m there because I just want to have a pretty amazing night. For all
the champagne that’s going to be popped and the new dance moves that are going
to be busted, think about this-“what exactly am I celebrating?” if you have no
answer to that, then I think it’s high time you made a self-evaluation.
I’m not saying that I’m
any better than people who go to bars and drink until they can’t feel their
legs anymore but for whatever thing you do today, be it dancing, cooking,
blogging or whatever, do it because there’s a reasonable motive behind it. Don’t
let yourself be blown by the wind. Take a stand and do something that you’ve
always wanted to instead of waiting for the New Year because the truth is that
not everyone will live to see the New Year. I captured a line from Alicia Keys’
“like you’ll never see me again” and it’s been stuck in my head all week. It says
“I don’t want to forget the present is a gift”. Yes, don’t ever forget the present
is the best gift that’s given to us by God. A great pun indeed! It reminds us
that we need to do all the things we can while we still have it, modify the
errors we made before it’s too late; forgive that neighbor who hurt you one too
many times, dissolve the abhorrence between you and your parents, go get that
girl you’ve always longed for or even drive down all the way to festac to
apologize to that negro whom you stole his girlfriend. What if we don’t see the
New Year? Would you die thinking you’ve lived your life exactly the way you
would have wanted? Instead of trying to create resolutions you might not keep,
try to envision the fact that the present is all you have.
Think of each day as the 31st of December because
in every sense it is pretty much a regular day except that most people are
anxious about whether they would make it into the New Year. If you tend to view
each day as the last day of the year, your life and the world as a whole would
be even greater than we can ever imagine. So I urge everyone that as you read
this, make a difference in your life today because as you do, you just might
inspire the person who’s right next to you to do the same.
My greatest inspiration today was to write this article
because I’ve always been too scared to let anyone read whatever I write, but I don’t
want to live thinking that I hid something that might have touched the heart of
someone who might have read it. So with this, I wish you all a happy New Year
in advance and have an awesome 2012. Cheers!
xoxo
Misan
